i somehow stopped to think straight lately. d naman sa baluktot ako mag-isip. well, let's just put it this way, puro biglaan ang mga decision ko lately. so wala nga ako sa tamang hulog. nakaka 2 absent na ko kahit pa nakapag-aral ako. the question is WHY?
Kung alam ko ba ang sagot eh tatanungin ko pa ba ang aking sarili. siyempre HINDI!
ok fine! somehow i know what's bothering me. but it's for me to settle on my own and that's another story i can't find in me to share likewise. maraming talagang storya ang buhay ko na nabubuo ng samutsaring personalidad. at sa iba't ibang personalidad na bumubuo sa pagkatao ko ay sadyang ang hirap kilalanin kung sino talaga ang tunay na ako.
madalas ko narin natanong sa sarili ko ang tanong na un. pero hanggang ngayon eh mahirap parin isalin sa mga kataga kung anu nga ba talaga. Tapos naisip ko lang i am maintaining 4 blogs, to wit:
livejournal, friendster, multiply at i.ph
does this mean i also have 4 personalities which comprise the real and whole me?
pwede
livejournal - here eh masyadong personal at emotional ang approach, puro private blogs na available lang sa aking mga mata. yun pinaka feeling ko at that particular moment eh i've come to put into words which really makes me relieved pagkatapos ko magsulat. but which nevertheless makes me still remain in the state of whatever feeling that is pero holding the feeling in a different perspective, a part of me that really confuses me all the same. but which i really treasure kc instead of pagiging masyadong tulala at everything just goes decluttered in my braincells eh ayun kinausap ko lang sarili ko through the medium of writing. eto un thinking aloud moments ni erica.
friendster - eto yun spontaneous me. i get to write what i know, mejo na-enhance ang writing skills ko to the point na meron na pumupuri ng blog entries ko. perfect choice of words at ang flow of thoughts eh amazing. dito eh meron ng mga unidentified persons na laging involved sa buhay ko. ang hirap nga lang eh dapat matago sila in such a way na hindi obvious. ang hirap na meron magfeeling. haha. eto un wholesome din dahil my friends get to read it, so dapat safe. haha
multiply - wala akong maisip panu ba ang dapat kong approach dito at sa totoo lang eh i only made the account dahil sa business. pero ngayon eh alam ko na ang dapat kong gawin dito. i'll maintain this as my buhay paralegal. puro cliente namin at mga kaso sa opisina. haha what happened to atty-client privileged communication, well, legal questions naman. eto un ang hirap ko idetermine panu gagawin sa pleadings. kasi naman discretion ko na talaga ang pag-gawa ng pleadings sa office namin. ako un practicing non-lawyer, kulang nalang sakin eh roll of attorney tlga. formality nlng ang pag enter ko sa lawschool, i am already living the life of a lawyer, without ofcourse the luxury of attorney's fees in cash. puro food ang gifts skn ng clients namin eh. hehe no wonder d ako pumapayat.
i.ph - dito eh un journalist-poet-storywriter side of me. enhancing my writing skills on whatever topic na pwde. feelings, thoughts, people, events - kung anuman pwde.
finally, may theme na ang mga blogs ko. nalala ko ulit un brod ko who commented on my entries that i don't have a theme so lagi cya looking forward what i'll be writing. oh eto na un sagot sa wish mo bro. :)
so on my first paralegal dilemma for the day eh:
charging clients professional fees
ako ang paralegal who gets to have a SAY sa professional fees na ipapataw namin sa clients
eto ang topic ko on my next blog entry here :)
next dun ay procedural law over substantive law
how & when does technicalities make the merits of your case plain useless
